Had a good night's sleep. Fell asleep before 7:00 pm, woke about 10:30 pm and then slept until about 5:00 am this morning. I think I was mentally exhausted.

There is a court date on the 31st of July 2012, which I will be unable to attend-- however I did want to offer a response in the form of a pleading. To that end, I tried to use Microsoft Word's Legal Pleading Wizard-- however found a problem [could not open the project] so searched the internet for a MS Word template-- and found one.

Worked on that paperwork and had a little breakfast [2 boiled eggs, coffee] until about 7:30 when I decided I wanted to get some exercise. I decided to use the almost always empty parking lot next to the complex as a track and walked [at a fast pace] for an hour -- 7:42 am until 8:42 am. Here is a photo of the parking lot [my car, white see header photo, in the background].

This is me-- after I arrived back to my room and took the clip out of my hair. My hair is like a sponge-- and it was very humid out-- though overcast so it wasn't too hot. Tomorrow I will have to get up earlier to stay ahead of the sun.

I do not look like such a witch in these photos.

Honestly, yesterday I cried more than once. I am rarely depressed, however yesterday was hard. It started right after my sister left around 1:00 pm- she seemed sad and I felt sad. Normally, I get sad about something-- think about it then do something else. Yesterday, I was unsure where to start. I had food, clothes, shelter but felt sad. For people who suffer with long periods of sadness-- i am sure my sadness between 1-5 yesterday afternoon-- seems like nothing-- but for me it is unusual. I am good at humoring myself. I learned about depression at BWMC, most of the people there were either suffering from depression or substance abuse. I never understood long term depression. I would be one of the idiots that would say-- snap out of it and get a life. I now know it is more complicated. That said-- I wasn't sad at the medical center. I think the money this is costing me is bothering me. and why do I have money problems anyway-- QiSoftware is well known. I never stay sad that long. I just do not get why all of this is happening. That the FBI will not respond after many years-- okay. My family? I am baffled. My sister said nothing about any of the legal things. She wanted to know how I was doing-- but for some reason her standing there looking at me sadly, made me sad. I even looked kind of cute yesterday in that I did my hair, had my cute sunglasses on-- yet she seemed so sad. I asked about my mother- she said she is doing okay. I did tell her- I could not take any more of her antics-- and I was safer alone. I am not sure if that is why she seemed sad-- or something else. I am out of my sad mood now and back to work. And boy, am I working.

I need to do more work on the legal paperwork-- and have no plans to do anything today, other than that. I will post more about this later.